GiST #79

The last day or so have been a blur so I can't even remember how far behind I am. Well...they've been tough days but now I feel up to trying out graces in small things. I did think of a few on the past few days but couldn't get to the computer to post them.

1. Since I can't self-medicate with food, I'm having to confront past ghosts and bad memories. Why is this a good thing? Well ... self-medicating to avoid pain isn't solving anything and is not healthy. So while this is very painful and unpleasant, it's healthier.

2. This morning TB and I were talking about that cotton-candy-in-the-brain sensation that is usually called fibromyalgia fog. I see him experiencing it and that's one reason I'm positive he has it. Anyway, I told him I understand the fear and frustration that comes with that feeling of fog and he became emotional and said at last someone gets it. I'm grateful to be that someone.

3. My youngest is about to be discharged from therapy. This is going to bring up some issues of concern--i.e. what happens if the medication no long works for her? She doesn't have anyone to follow her for medication management because of insurance issues. Still, it's a blessing and a grace that she's stable and well and can be released from therapy.

4. The youngest and I enjoyed lunch at our favorite Chinese buffet. We haven't had such a treat in almost a year--well, maybe it's been a year or more. I could only eat one plate of food and then I had trouble finishing it! It was really tasty though!

5. It's always a blessing and a grace to see my little grandson!